Saturday, February 26, 2011

The Doldrums

I'm going through a period where I'm kinda motivated to do 1000 different things, but I'm not really getting much satisfaction from any of them. I don't know what to do with myself lately. Sure, I have plenty to do, but it all feels so empty lately. I'm just not getting the same thrill from it that I used to. I might even get excited about getting the parts to make something, but once I have it in hand, I don't feel like making it anymore. I have abandoned projects laying around everywhere. I've already raised 2 kids, been through college, lived in various cities and states.  Other things I'd like to do like going to Europe are out of my financial reach. I'd like to move but I can't do that either. I'd like a safe car to drive but I don't earn enough to even begin to save for something like that. I feel like I'm going nowhere fast. Everywhere I turn I'm up against a wall.